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About time someone made a new thread.
What if Mello Yello outside?
Very illegal and dangerous. Do not Mello Yello outside!
Went to a Chinatown and celebrated the lunar new year, it seems like so much fun to do a holiday like this with your family!
It's probably fun the first few times, most of the rest of the time besides the family gathering and fuckoff massive meal part it's really not much.
The fireworks are ridiculously loud and start at nine at night and last all the way until and past dawn the next day depending where you live and lately the New Year's Live Broadcast has been mostly unfunny. Even the stand-up comedians were uninspired this year.
There was a pretty decent mass martial arts dance and the songs were alright, at least. Also wasn't as ridiculously nationalistic since last year's was so on the nose about it that everyone was cringing during parts of it.
I just spent 3 hours playing Koikatu and I wasn't even doing anything lewd with it
Character creators are addicting…
Yeah if a game has a good character creator its easy to just mess around with that for hours getting a character to look just right.
I had a job interview today!
Aside from that I spent all day playing a pornographic text adventure game, batch downloading my newer favorites from sadpanda, and making more Koikatu characters.
I'm not a pervert I swear
Don't give me that look!
The character creator really is addicting!
I hope Yuno's not actually killing it off for good.
I enjoy it more often than not and I'd hate to see just a few bad actors render it dead
I like it too
Talking to trips is nice sometimes and I like the relaxed atmosphere
Trolls will never leave. All you can hope for is that people ignore them and report, which seems like the general attitude now.
what i don't understand is how the board can go hours without posting, but then some idiot posts something stupid and then everyone who is idling on it comes to life and it becomes the dumbest shit on earth
contrary to what most might think, i don't actually enjoy banning people, but i also do not enjoy coming on and seeing schoolyard slapfights
there's been something different about it for the past few months as well, where no matter when i come on it seems like there are two people who are arguing in bad faith with each other
obviously i get that websites will have stupid shit like this, but at the rate that it occurs compared to the number of people that we have using the site, its completely disproportionate. i'm not trying to create a hugbox, but i also don't want samachan to just become a ring where everyone gets into an argument and "FUCK YOU" becomes the modus operandi of the community. there's some point where we cant just say it's "trolls" and have to realize that its the people that actually use the board.
the board is just unlisted though (for now)
> i'm not trying to create a hugbox, but i also don't want samachan to just become a ring where everyone gets into an argument and "FUCK YOU" becomes the modus operandi of the community.
Well there's a difference between arguing or shit talking and just flaming for the sake of flaming. I felt like we were on a good track having the "don't respond to rule breakers" thing instated.
> there's some point where we cant just say it's "trolls" and have to realize that its the people that actually use the board.
Obviously I have no way of knowing, and maybe I'm being too optimistic about our userbase, but to me it feels like there are people who posting in bad faith or just trying to turn /r/ into a shit-flinging contest
>>17570>it feels like there are people who posting in bad faith or just trying to turn /r/ into a shit-flinging contest
Oh I would definitely agree, that's why the board is unlisted
it's still up though lol
I guess I'll just blogpost here instead
My weekend has been exceedingly boring and depressing
How is everyone else doing?
Same kind of, mostly watching anime and drinking
Feeling kinda lonely but then remembering I don’t really like like people and feeling kind of confused of why I feel like that.
Tried hockey and am enjoying it more than I thought I would, gonna probably read the hockey manga one of these days.
what are you drinking tonight
Cheap Mexican beer, mostly. I might go to a local bar to try to meet people since it’s saturday though.
The hunt for a job is getting better and a little hopeful.
Came up with an exercise routine based on medical standards that I will attempt to incorporate starting next week.
Couldn't write any kanji because my mechanical pencil is out of recharges.
Haven't touched piano in a week.
So you could say the weekend has had its ups and downs.
>>17575>I might go to a local bar to try to meet people since it’s saturday though.
Woah amazingly social
Good luck if you go!
That sort of thing isn't really for me (loud and crowded places make me panic a bit) but I have made a resolution to try and meet more people or at least be more social. I have a lot of trouble finding people with similar interests or outlook as me though
no more /r/ive :(
saw a rose on the way back from work
What did you guys do this time?
Are you gonna give it to the one you love?>>17602
This is a website for humans not animals silly
Seriously cannot believe I'm being forced to post outside of /r/ive with the rest of the pleb…
Same shit as usual it looks like
Someone stopped seeding their torrents
Also, I’m genuinely curious, what was so bad about that circlejerker’s likes that you are in despair?
What the heck happened to /r/ive? My connection is being actively refused…
/r/ive dead again…
I had a quite lovely weekend and I hope you all did too
I went on a road trip with some friends and had a very nice time. Ate a ton of tasty food!
What did you eat specifically?
AGH FUCK I HAD IMAGES LEFT TO SAVE IN THERE
A lot of things!
Sushi, grilled fish, eggs benedict, fancy biscuits and gravy, smoked cheese, burgers, ice cream…
And I bought a cute Flandre keychain
What the hell?? You really are rich.
I promise you I am really not!
Did you make all of that yourself or did you buy it? I hope iot was good either way but you should go and try to learn to make some grilled saury and eggs benedict if you have time. They're easy to make and even if you fuck it up as long as it's not ruinous they still taste OK.
Oh no this was all bought, sorry to disappoint. It was all awesome though. That said, getting better at cooking is on my short list of things to do.
I know the process of making Hollandaise sauce and poaching an egg and what not but I can't say I've ever actually done it.
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Is trace.moe (i.e. WAIT) not working for anyone else? No matter what picture I put in it thinks it's either pure black or pure white.
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I got praised at work today for doing a good job, hooray me…>>17853
It's working for me just fine, I gave it a screencap from Promised Neverland.
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It's friday! No more work for 2 whole days!
I'm sore all over and in a kind of bad mood though…
dont care loser LOL
The rudest post on Samachan.org
Yeah, I’m glad you have the weekend at least.
When are we gonna watch Ghost Hound you fucker?
Today I will play some video games
Probably will play some Gran Turismo.
I do feel bad about not finishing that
I suppose with live down the easiest thing to do would be find a time that works for everyone that was watching originally.
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How was your weekend Samachan?
I started my first job today (as a babysitter) and I feel like I’m gonna die after my 8 hour shift
The fact my sleep was fucked didn’t help!
How do you do this?
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Classic Samachan, talking to me right as I get ready for bed…>>18018
Congratulations anonymous, hang in there and do your best! Work is tough but I'm rooting for you.
Babysitting huh? How did it go? I used to babysit for extra money when I was younger, I didn't mind it honestly.>>18019
i would not trust a single samachanner to baby sit my children
I am very trustworthy
you are a pedophile
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I am not! Stop saying that
I’m not a pedo and am only a manga otaku, to be a professional child care person you have to undergo extensive background checks
I, uh, see
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I had a TERRIBLE DAY at work this morning, please make lots of posts to cheer me up thanks
I'm not dead!
Not yet at least…
Let's watch it this saturday at night, just the 2 of us
You’re handsome, stoic and a hard worker
Aww thanks do ya really think so?>>18038
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how was everyone's day
I felt like I was gonna die at work today because I hit my head and dropped something heavy on my foot but I took a nap and now I'm doing well.
Gonna continue rewatching Darker than Black with some friends
How was your day?
I don't have any friends.
i'll be your friend
you wanna play a game
No. Only losers have friends.
I am every Samachanners friend, you included
you're on samachan, you're already a fucking loser
Samachanners are the coolest losers around.
My day was pretty good.
spent it mostly lazing around, but class went well. catching up on some shows I forgot to watch over the weekend right now.
I bought a ticket to Hong Kong today
I was going to take the train but then I'd have to leave a day earlier because it arrives at night…
I wanted to take the shinkansen…
why are you in hong kong
I'm not in Hong Kong yet, I leave next week
As for why, stupid shit that I need to be there in person for.
Can I fly in to meet you
I bought a switch on Amazon today.
My internet completely died for the past 32 hours but now it's back thank god
Yuno please answer my emails
What games are you going to play?>>18098
What did you do while it was dead?
How awful, I'm glad you're okay>>18101
Whenever mine goes out I just play games or sometimes I'll go out and do errands. Or I be thankful that I download all my porn
That works for me, I'll get everything ready to go and try to round up the other anonymous. Do you remember what episode we were on?
When that happens I sit by the hole in my wall the ethernet cable comes out of and keep taking it out and plugging it back in until it comes back.
Mostly did offline work
It was terrible
Oh I also went to the library, which was fun.
Time to work some more.
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Ahh, tomorrow is going to be the first White Day in a while I'm not baking my own homemade treats. I'll have to go all out for Christmas.
What is samachan doing in return for all the sweet things you got for Valentine's Day? Remember the most important ingredient!
What kind of stuff do you usually bake? I don't celebrate white day and I don't really have anyone to give stuff too anyways but I hope you have a nice one.
Cakes and cookies and quick breads mostly. Nothing too fancy. Most of it goes to my neighbors.
I didn't get anything for valentine's day nor do I have anyone to give something to…
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How could you forget about your wife Yuzoko so soon? Could it be that you actually hate your wife?
He must be trying to be cold and distant so that she longs for him more. It's a very dangerous game he's playing, especially with someone so clingy.
There's nothing funny about that!>>18125
She's just my girlfriend, we aren't married yet!
And I tried to give her some chocolates but she said she was stuffed.
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MY PHONE FELL OUT OF MY BACK POCKET AND GOT A SCRATCH ON IT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Yuno calm down it's gonna be okay!
I hope it’s insured.
Why do girls put their phones in their back pockets? It's even more uncomfortable than a wallet and if you sit on it it'll break.
Usually the front pockets are too shallow to hold your phone.
Answer my emails Yuno :(
Are you trying to get in her pants?
Good morning Samachan
Time for work…
No it's Samachan relevant
What's that? Does it taste good?
Sounds like she's ignoring you, duhuhu
Yeah I just got like ten emails from yuno asking how to deal with some loser who's bothering her.
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Tadaima Samachan, time for relaxing!>>18139
You're better off not knowing…>>18142
Thanks, I did my best but it was still miserable.
Aaaa my stone soup character died again
She was doing so well too
But it had ideas on how to improve a board…
I've been getting better at that game, I can now pretty consistently get through Lair and Mines. I still die on the Lair branches most games though
Oh no, I got a catfish basket from my former favorite local soul food restaurant and it looks like they've switched to swai. I can taste and feel the difference. What a shame.
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I went bowling today. I suck at it as expected but it was kinda fun. The screens had really charming and awkward 3D animations from like 2002 that made me nostalgic.
On another note I think I'm coming down with something, I've been having sore throats and headaches and I keep having moments where I get short of breath and lightheaded and can feel my heart beat in my throat. It's kinda concerning but hopefully it goes away on it's own.
On a more positive note my depression has been just a little bit better the past few days after having a really down couple of weeks.
How was your day Samachan?
You can't get sick. What pound ball did you use?
I went bowling once in 1999. It was pretty fun but the whole place smelled like barf and beer. I think I got two strikes and a spare. They also had Street Fighter II which I played with a fat kid while I was waiting for a lane to open.
I went bowling with my niece once and the stupid idiot tried to roll the ball down the lane and instead fell flat on her face into the ball. She chipped her tooth and started crying.
My balls pounding against his ass.
That's a foul. Did it have one of those electronic buzzers that raise Cain when you go over the line?
Did you beat him at street fighter?>>18162
It didn't but she was crying pretty loud and people from other lanes started staring. I had a pretty good game and wanted to finish it up but I couldn't since this wallowing sack decided to bleed all over the floor.
>>18156>How was your day Samachan?
Every day I continue to live is worse than the one that came before it. That means every time you've asked me this it was on the worst day of my life. Today is also the worst day of my life.
how old are you>>18160
how old were you both
bowling alleys have a certain charm to it and i used to hang out at one quite a bit after school. it had a pool hall as well and i would frequent the cafe and have nikumans
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>>18158>You can't get sick.
I think I know the answer already but why can't I get sick exactly?>What pound ball did you use?
I started using a 16 pound one because it was the only one with holes big enough for my hands but I found a 14 pound one later.>>18159
I haven't been bowling since I was like 10. I got one spare and threw the ball in the gutter a lot lol>>18160>>18163
You should be nicer to your niece!>>18165
Cheer up please anonymous reading such things makes me sad
Yeah my Cammy had no trouble against some fat kid who didn't know shit about Street Fighter even when he played Vega or Guile or Sagat. He was a mess.
What a strange position
Idiots can't get sick. Only 14lbs? How sad.. I carry a 30lb ball in each hand and score strikes down both lanes at the same time with ease.
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Sure but you have to start the thread with this.
I am incapable of cheer.
>>18177>Idiots can't get sick.
That's what I thought…>>18183
Yes please open board>>18185
Well with that attitude you will be
Turn that frown upside down
Wow, what an insensitive thing to say to someone on the worst day of their life.
Come play TF2 with us Samachan
The server ip is on /r/ive
/r/ive is gone for me
Post the IP here little baby man
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I got a desk and cleaned up my room today, it's finally starting to look like a place I actually want to spend time in. I might post a picture of my desk once I get it all organized.
Sadly I also have a cold and have to work tomorrow. Wish me luck, and goodnight Samachan.
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I framed some of my settei sheets, I'm really happy with how they look.
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I bought an artbook, some cute figures, and a mug off Mandarake today, I'm excited for them to arrive!
Who are the figures of?
The Ichigo Mashimaro girls
They're just small prize/trading figures but they were like 500 yen each so I had to buy them
Rich bastard. Enjoy the stuff, post it when it arrives.
Ugh the RSS feed I use is down right after I get home
Now I'll have to wait until tomorrow to catch up…
I'm very sick, but it was a little nostalgic to spend all day in my pajamas eating ice cream and playing video games.>>18284
Thanks, I will!
And just because I'm irresponsible with what little money I do make doesn't mean I'm rich…
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I miss /r/ive…
I thought it was up last week
Why is it not up this week?
It was only for that week I think.
Because you guys didn't behave
I miss Yuno
I hope she stops being busy and posts again soon
To clarify, it had nothing to do with us "not behaving"…
As ever I'm pretty sure Yuno just wasn't happy about the volume of posts it gets compared to the main site.
That's how it goes with any live board. It's because you know people are reading your posts I think.
>>18323>To clarify, it had nothing to do with us "not behaving"…
lol what? why are you acting like you know my decision processes?
i do not like the board and I don't like the circlejerking it enables. its detrimental to the site and 95% of the discussion isn't related to the site what so ever. the hopes were that if we allowed non japanese discussion, the majority of discussion would still be about site related content. instead, the only tangentially related content to the site is users posting 2D images, and then saying they want to fuck other characters.
if posting about how much your day sucked or how you want to kill yourself because you cant get a girlfriend is that important, use the blog thread. the board is redundant outside of enabling bad behavior and attention whoring
>>18326>lol what? why are you acting like you know my decision processes?
Because when I asked that's the answer you gave me…
How the hell am I supposed to have a super hot genius frigid tall domineering fashionably sexy dynamite chinese older sister girlfriend now?!
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I went to the flea market today and bought this penguin. He is a bit raggedy but still cute.
that thing is ugly as hell and belongs in the trash
It's kinda creepy but I guess I could see how you could think it was cute.
I'm getting very angry now though since it reminds me of the penguin from SZS.
RIP anon's love life
Cut short by a vengeful and jealous Yuno
They really nailed the baby penguin look huh
My Manadarake order came in!
The little Mashimaros are super cute.>>18342
I like it, it's creepy but also cute. It looks loved.
Nice! Those figures look really small!
Is the artbook just of murata's stuff then?
Yeah they're just trading figures but I like them a lot. They look nice on my desk. Most of the shows I like don't have a ton of merchandise so I have to make do…>Is the artbook just of murata's stuff then?
Yeah it has a lot of his older stuff. More importantly it's the one with removable pages so I could theoretically frame them which I think would be pretty cool. Even though I already used my frames on those settei sheets I could always switch them out.
This won't end here.
Fate brought us together for a reason. Yuno can't tear us apart now.
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I have an interview tomorrow!
And I'm gonna go pick up some display shelves for my figures, gonna be a busy day.
19 consecutive days of work complete
focus on the money
focus on the money…
Idolmaster SP came out 10 years ago.
Is ten years old.
As far as I know, only one of the three games is still fully english fantranslated.
Where does time go?
My pet ferret who is my best friend has been really sick for over a week now.
I brought him to the vet a week ago and he got put on antibiotics, and while they seemed to help at first, he seems to have slid back.
He hasn't eaten in 2 days.
I'm deathly afraid of losing my good buddy who's only 4 years old, just halfway through his life, and I'm receiving shit from a bunch of different flanks since people are assholes.
If I lose him I might blow my brains out since I'm a worthless broken person who will only burden others as long as I'm alive, and one of the few individuals I could help and rely upon would be gone.
God I hope he starts eating again. I'm afraid to die and I hate to live but I'd live for him.
Sorry to hear that. I hope he gets better. You're the one who posted their ferret pictures in the uzamaid thread right?
That sucks. It's the worst when animals are sick since they can't talk to you about how they're feeling.
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Yep, I am.
The darker colored ferret is the one who's been sick. Pic related.>>18399
Thank you both for your concern, but, I'm both happy and embarrassed to say after having vented and been miserable, but I actually woke up to the sound of him crunching on and eating food for the first time in 2 days just a 10 minutes ago.
I could still be dreaming but this feels pretty vivid. I'm very, very happy.
Maybe Samachan helped through energy somehow. Either way thank you for listening.
please don't kill yourself
samachan.org needs the readership
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I just realized I had like 250GB of Star Trek episodes and movies in a .zip file on this hard drive. Deleted that shit and now I have space to download loads more anime I'll never watch!
You should have watched it all first.
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I like the philosophical concept of The Absurd
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH THIS SATURDAY WAS BORING NO NO NO NO NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Should have come to watch Ghost Hound
I only practiced writing some kanji and did little else besides lurking the internet and downloading pictures of sexy 2D ladies I need to pick up my slack
No D&D and I got a flat tire
Huh it was being streamed? Nobody posted about it.
It happened in the spur of the moment. Anyways we are watching from episode 15 tomorrow at DnD time
Feeling very depressed today. Also pretty frustrated with myself for spending my whole Sunday sitting around hating myself.>>18420
Sorry I didn't show up, I only just got out of bed…
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Don't worry. I've spent the last fifteen years just but sitting around hating myself and I'm doing fine. Take it easy!
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Kind post, thank you anonymous.
Cool song, thanks for sharing.Those lyrics hit me kinda hard, lol
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Back to work tomorrow… wish me luck.
Oh wow /r/ive got killed outright, /r/ doesn't exist as a page anymore.
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I finally ordered a Japanese copy of HeartGold a little while ago for like $17 and it should be arriving in the next two weeks, looking forward to playing around with that. Me and a friend are going to try screwing around with trades between his Platinum and the HG and see what fun stuff we can do.
On another note, I've never played the Gen 4 games personally–out of Diamond, Pearl, and Platinum, I've heard Platinum is best to go with, if I get one of those eventually–is that right?
Neat! Why the japanese version though? Does it have different stuff?
And yeah Platinum is probably the best one for Gen 4.
I mainly did it because I want to get more familiar with kana–not necessarily memorize but do more than just gloss over it. I figured having a more up-to-date game than my japanese Crystal would be nice too because I could interact easier with other people who play! Also, trying to play a game in another language is a fun challenge, would recommend trying it out
Out of curiosity, I'm imagining that Platinum's the definitive version (like Crystal or Emerald) of Gen 4–is that strictly what makes it better?
HGSS is the best gen IV game by far but Pt isn't that far behind and DP actually feels kind of dated in comparison, despite being only a couple years older and still really good. The amount of added content and competitive tools in Pt was was unprecedented for a third version.
But yeah if you're not buying the games when they're new it's generally best to just get the third version.>>18441
JP version also has proper game corners with slots.
DP is also kind of unpolished and clunky. I don't remember if Pt is better optimized but HGSS definitely is and runs far more smoothly and generally feels better to play.
I didn't realize the new japanese era would begin today.
I guess I should take that as an incentive to renew myself in some way.
Ah good, guess I can postpone renewing myself until then.
Tenno heika banzai is staying around on the job for another month.
Her love belongs to chinanon don't try to take her away from him.
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Had some really nice weather lately, I am excited to do some hiking soon. I went for a fun drive and listened to a bunch of music with the windows open today, it was pleasant. Work wasn't bad either. Tell me about your day Samachan!
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It was long and unpleasant, then I got home, ate dinner and that sucked, and then now I'm going to sleep
60 hour work week banzai!
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>>18499>It was long and unpleasant, then I got home, ate dinner and that sucked, and then now I'm going to sleep
I'm sorry to hear it. Hang in there!
What was for dinner and why did it suck?>60 hour work week banzai!
Yuno sure is amazing…
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I ended up getting a recommendation today on where to try next applying for an internship, so I just finished that app up and will be awaiting results. Also tried contacting an old childhood friend and we haven't spoken in like 7 years, so I hope my message is received. And I got confirmation that I have a week to study for a medical history exam.
So not much happened today per se but there's a lot to look forward to.>>18497
I'm glad it's getting warm enough now to be able to let the windows down, it's been a bitterly cold winter>>18499
At least at the end of every day, there's always sleep to look forward to. Sounds awful though
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>>18502>I ended up getting a recommendation today on where to try next applying for an internship, so I just finished that app up and will be awaiting results.
Uwah, good luck on that application! I'm happy to hear you're keeping busy and working towards something.>Also tried contacting an old childhood friend and we haven't spoken in like 7 years, so I hope my message is received.
That's cool, 7 years is a long time. I think I'd be too nervous to do something like that haha. It'll be interesting to see what they are up to.>And I got confirmation that I have a week to study for a medical history exam.
Do your best!
All these busy Samachanners…>I'm glad it's getting warm enough now to be able to let the windows down
I bet Anonymous'll be all responsible and stuff with it
What a square>>18504
It's definitely nervewracking getting back in touch but I feel like eh, what's the worst that could happen?
Also I'm hoping the best for the application too, but we'll see what happens. This is probably one of my last shots to get work this summer and some degree of experience on my resume, so… hope it turns out lol
Why did you get yelled at?
They were going over attendance and they basically told me that if I was late anymore I was gonna get terminated. There's some arbitrary number of times you can be late and I'm already over it apparently since I keep showing up like 4-5 minutes after the actual start time, which I figured was no big deal but the time clock counts it as "tardy".
Today I went shopping and then drank and played video games for 8 hours
Sounds like a productive day!
I had my last day of classes today. Now all that's left is finals and then I'm on break for a couple of weeks!
Now the crunch is on to turn in all these projects before their due dates…
I actually have lots of stuff I need to do but I'm too tired to do any of it which means the weekend will suck
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I have lots of stuff I should do too but I'm not going to do any of it precisely because it's the weekend
Instead I will eat junk food and try to beat this video game and f5 Samachan a bunch
Gonna buy me a bike.
Gonna be a glutton
I legit have to do it over the weekend though.
Cool! I used to ride mine to my friends house and just around town in a circle when I was in high school, and for awhile afterwards too.>>18556
Watcha gonna eat?>>18558
Oh, shame. Well best of luck, I hope you find some time to relax and enjoy yourself.
30 but nothing's changed.
Try casting a spell
That reminds me a good bunch of my school friends joke that I'll die in my early thirties because of my terrible eating habits, sickly disposition and propensity to withstand physical activity with intensity beyond what my body apparently should be able to bear.
How long do you think you'll survive?
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I don't quite have my wizard powers yet but I know the feeling. Hang in there anonymous and do your best!>>18568
It surely isn't
But I feel like the older I get the more set in my ways I become and the harder it is to change anything I don't like about myself. It's quite depressing.
hopefully i get to choose
Learn to cook and then go outside to buy ingredients
Eating less instant ramen will be good for your body too.
What makes you think I can't cook and eat instant ramen a lot?
Got my bike.
Wild guess is all
In which case congrats you're not actually a hikki since you do go outside. Are you a NEET?
Maybe he gets all his groceries from Amazon Fresh.
Marinated some pork in an apricot sauce I made today, it came out pretty tasty.
Gotta sleep early and wake up at an ungodly hour tomorrow though…
Wish me luck.>>18630
Oh anonymous meant a motorcycle, I feel silly now.
I've only ever driven one around a parking lot one time but they seem fun. Enjoy it and drive safe!
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Feeling awful today and no one to talk to. I need a hug or something.
And tomorrow is only Tuesday on top of that…
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I'm sick and running a high fever
Also super thirsty all the time and I've drank like six liters of water today alone
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Aw that sucks, sorry to hear it. At least you're staying hydrated. Hope you feel better soon.
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Really stressful day today, I feel a little sick to my stomach.
At least it's partially good stress.
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I think I live in a simulation and there was a glitch. My tube light used to make a weird buzzing sound when it was on but now I can still hear it when I turn it off.
I played it a bit back around that time too when I still used steam. Didn't like it very much even though I was pretty into FPS online play at the time. It probably also had to do with it not usually running very well because my computer was really old and shitty, but even when it did it just wasn't very fun for some reason. Never understood why it was so popular.
I've played on and off since the Orange Box came out, which is where I got the game. I never really became a regular on any servers but I used to have a fun time messing around on random micspam servers.
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>>18677>anime wasn't mainstream>2009
welcome to the adult world, difficulty hell
welcome to the 12er club, buddy
it's called 2019 because we're going back to the 19th century
Are you saving for something in particular? A consistent 60-hour work week is pretty intense.
He finally decided to accept my invitation to Easter Island so he is saving money to buy lots of souvenirs
19th century labor wasn't even this bad unless you were black.
everyone were black from all the soot
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Samachan I'm finally home but I'm FREAKING OUT
Seems like you remembered to update your sheet
Oh I'm actually doing that right now, I don't think I have anything complete saved yet though? I intended to have it done earlier but >>18691
It's been a month since Yuno closed /r/ive and now I find out she actually shut down the server. What a heartless monster.
I [b]need[/b] my weekly intake of exchanging pleasantries with chinanon's undeniably intellectually superlative dominant tall sexy older sister!
Did lots of stuff today but it feels like I haven't used the day to its full extent. It's already 7pm and it feels lacking…
Join D&D and take control of my sister's old OC if you want
Please send your impossibly hot four-digit IQ-having tall sexy bomb older sister my regards and tell her I say no cashmere in the whole of Arabia can match the splendour of her pearly skin.
That's a unique compliment, if nothing else.
when live is dead we'll continue the circlejerk that killed it on 2D/everything
Shepherd here. Cashmere sheep come in all kinds of colors, from yellow-snow white to sandy-warzone brown to can-still-see-the-stains black. I wouldn't exactly call it "pearly."
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Currently having a nervous breakdown because I have a date tomorrow. I don't know how this is supposed to work, nobody taught me!
Skip it and watch anime instead.
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Are you dating a boy or a girl?
Did you tell her?
Did she like it?>>18728
And whose fault do you think that is?!
>>18747>And whose fault do you think that is?!
what does this even mean
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I am honestly so happy for you yuyu, good luck on your date! Do your best!
Also please update us on how it went!
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I don't really understand you 3D fetishists, but I'm not one to kinkshame. If it makes you happy go for it!
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Well I'm off to go embarrass myself.>>18745
I almost bailed out of stress last night, but that's an awful thing to do to a person.>>18746
A girl, because I'm not gay!>>18750
Thank you icicle, that's really kind of you. Your encouragement has given me bravery.>>18753
I don't understand what the heck I'm doing either but it can't hurt to try, or at least that's what I'm telling myself…>If it makes you happy go for it!
Thanks samafriend. We shall see.
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i got off work at 12:05am sunday, then went home and got in bed, then got at call at 4:32am from some dickhead client and i had to get up and spend 2 hours on that
fuck work im just going to quit and make porn
My entire room smells like raid and there are still mosquitos buzzing round my ear
I think I might slather myself in the stuff tomorrow before I go to bed
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That sounds rough. That kind of thing is why I never went back to work after December. Reverting to my hikikomori ways is the best thing I've ever done for myself.
What's the rub with this yuyu guy? His online persona and the way he describes himself IRL don't match up at all.
Yuyu is handsome and stoic, it's common knowledge.
I bet he's railing that girl right now in the bathroom of the IHOP he took her to lunch at.
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It's not gay if he's cute!
But really, good job.
I tried to get a girlfriend once and failed, and it was so traumatic I've said I'd never try again.
I haven't tried again…
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>>18750>Also please update us on how it went!
Well uh it went OK I guess? It wasn't a disaster. I felt quite awkward at points but nothing too bad, I think we both had a good time. We just chatted over some food but I am somehow completely emotionally and mentally drained…>>18760
I don't have an online persona I am just me
I don't get what you mean
If anything I have an offline persona>>18762
I'm not some kinda perv>>18763
It's still a little gay! But thanks, I appreciate it.>I tried to get a girlfriend once and failed, and it was so traumatic I've said I'd never try again.>I haven't tried again…
Well I have no idea where this is going and I really hope I don't end up in the same scenario as you (it's my biggest concern honestly) but really, if I can do it anyone can.>>18757
You don't even get weekends off?! How awful.
Please don't die and make sure to get some sleep
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Railing big booty bitches in the Waffle House bathroom and collecting ahegaos is how this stoic, handsome above-average cocked yuyu stud enjoys his time and that's great for him. It doesn't have to be for everybody. It's fine to take it easy.
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How was your day, Anonymous-san?
Fine I guess
I have anime to watch but I'm too busy recently to find time to do so, I've been commuting 4-5 hours a day and'll have to do so for at least another fortnight
It was alright.
I noticed a gravesite photo request on FindaGrave in a cemetery near me where one of my relatives is buried, so I visited it and spent over half an hour searching for the name and grave.
Only found him after I prayed to my relative buried in the same cemetery. I actually found him less than a minute after praying, and he was buried right near my relative.
I took the photo of his gravesite and fulfilled the photo request. His family that requested his gravesite photo are probably out of State (most likely in Florida given the burial of his most recent sibling), which is why they couldn't take a picture themselves.>>18765
Only a little. No problem.>I really hope I don't end up in the same scenario as you
Don't worry, you actually made it to the first date. My relationship was ruined just by confessing.>if I can do it anyone can
I don't think so.
I unintentionally piss people off, and the only people who tolerate me for extended periods are ones who both can realize that I never MEAN to do harm, and can mentally suppress all my retardation after the fact.
Outside of my family I've only ever known one person like that, and he's not a cute girl. Or cute at all. Just a great (and my only) friend.
Being able to watch anime while driving is a nifty skill. I'm hauling a shipping container full of Amish furniture down I-55 to New Orleans and I just finished rewatching Hyouka on my dash-mounted laptop.
I guess but I take the subway and there's not always any seats
FindAGrave? What's the point of taking a picture of a grave, is it like protection from vandalism?
>>18778>Only found him after I prayed to my relative buried in the same cemetery.
I know a lot of cultures do the whole ancestor worship thing or enshrine pictures of dead relatives or their ashes and stuff but the idea of praying to dead people always spooked me a bit. I hope looking for the grave wasn't emotionally taxing on you though.
Do you actually want a girlfriend and all that jazz though? It's important to actually know whether you do before spending so much effort on something most people are only interested in because of social pressure and indoctrination from childhood.
It's a website listing locations graves in the US, Canada and Europe so that they're easier to find and visit.
Taking a picture of a grave is both so that it's easier to find when you or someone else visits in person (since you know what it will look like), and to make the memorial page for the gravesite look more complete in general.
You can put out photo requests for graves in cemeteries you aren't near and hope someone near them will take a photo of the grave, too, so it's also for loved ones who can't visit.
I've been using the site and visiting graves since Summer 2018, and honestly grave mapping has been my first outdoor hobby in almost a decade, so it's had a positive impact for me.
The only thing that worries me about praying to the dead is sometimes I get intrusive thoughts mid prayer and feel like I did something wrong.
It wasn't too emotionally taxing, I just felt bad since the graves were so close together and I was going row by row so I had to step on and over a bunch of gravesites, which made me anxious, so I kept mumbling, "Sorry sir", "Sorry ma'am" while I went and the anxiety went away.
>Do you actually want a girlfriend and all that jazz though
I wanted the girl I confessed to as a girlfriend at the time for sure.
Right now I don't want one due to how negative that experience was. However if I come into another close relationship with girl I'll probably want her to be my girlfriend, too since that's how my mind works, so I try and avoid knowing women my age.
>>18785>so I kept mumbling, "Sorry sir", "Sorry ma'am" while I went
That's unfortunate. I can understand getting attached to people easily, I do it too. I think it's mostly because I'm just kind of aloof and reclusive and know very few people. I tried to get into 3D for a while pretty rough emotionally. Being a nuisance to other people is really taxing.
I'm kind of scared of having a midlife crisis where society finally convinces me being a virgin isn't okay and go on a carousing and whoring spree and end up dead in a ditch with cock rot or something.
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This conversation has been really touching. I wanna give anonymous a hug>>18772
Well you don't bug me anonymous, I think you're cool.>>18784>grave mapping has been my first outdoor hobby in almost a decade, so it's had a positive impact for me.
That actually sounds really interesting, I might give it a shot. getting outdoors is nice so I'm glad you found a way to enjoy it.>>18785
I'm not exactly religious or superstitious or anything but I get how you feel, I always have a sense of reverence when I'm around graves. My uncle is buried out in the woods in my grandparents property. We keep a bottle of whisky out there and pour some out for him whenever we visit it.>so I try and avoid knowing women my age.
You shouldn't be so hard on yourself. Coming from me that's silly advice to give I know, but I don't believe you're as bad as you think.>>18786
Extremely cute>>18787>I'm kind of scared of having a midlife crisis where society finally convinces me being a virgin isn't okay
H-haha imagine that happening to someone…
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>>18791>Well you don't bug me anonymous, I think you're cool.
Thank you but I may have bugged you in the past. It's also usually when I get relaxed around people that I unintentionally bug them.
>That actually sounds really interesting, I might give it a shot.
It definitely gives you a better respect for those who came before you, and a better understanding of events today!
>getting outdoors is nice so I'm glad you found a way to enjoy it.
Thank you. I'm also trying to get into reenactment. I've reached out to a local Imperial Japanese Army reenactment group and they seem to be interested in letting me onboard.
I chose the IJA not just for my love of Japan, but that the Arisaka 38 is easily my favorite WWII bolt action and I love the sight picture, plus a contextual excuse to hurl insults and threats in Japanese is wonderful.
It's good they let white people in since there's such a shortage of Asians into reenactment in the States.
>I'm not exactly religious or superstitious or anything but I get how you feel, I always have a sense of reverence when I'm around graves.
I don't really fit into any specific religion, but I do feel that the spirits of the dead can hear your prayers when you're at their graves.
I'm okay stepping on gravesites when it's to get close to the headstone and pray, since that's respectful, but I feel disrespectful when I'm just walking over them to get somewhere else.
>My uncle is buried out in the woods in my grandparents property. We keep a bottle of whisky out there and pour some out for him whenever we visit it.
It's interesting you should mention that. Earlier this year I actually drove 3 and a half hours out to West Point to visit the grave of a historical hero of mine.
I ended up getting in contact with his great grandson, and he also pours whiskey on his grave whenever he visits.
Pic related is a photo I took of his gravesite.
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I survived Monday…
How am I supposed to find time to watch anime when all I do when I get home is sleep?! At least Yuzuko was waiting for me as always.>>18797>Thank you but I may have bugged you in the past.
The only people that have ever bugged me on Samachan are people blatantly trying to upset me. And Yuno. Samachanners are the coolest dudes around.
> I'm also trying to get into reenactment. I've reached out to a local Imperial Japanese Army reenactment group and they seem to be interested in letting me onboard.
Woah that's really awesome, I hope you have fun. I think reenactment is really cool but I sadly know almost nothing about history. There sure seem to be a lot of really smart history guys on this site though.
I also don't really know anything about Japanese guns but the pawn shop near me had a bunch of old Japanese rifles for pretty cheap. Some of them still had the little chrysanthemum on them which was cool.
> I actually drove 3 and a half hours out to West Point to visit the grave of a historical hero of mine.
I ended up getting in contact with his great grandson, and he also pours whiskey on his grave whenever he visits.
That is a really cool adventure. And that's pretty brave of you to reach out to his grandson like that, what a neat story.
>>18797>It's good they let white people in since there's such a shortage of Asians into reenactment in the States.
I don't know much about 20th Century reenactment but I've seen some pretty diverse Confederate infantry brigades. Old Jefferson Davis is probably doing a Chinese contortionist act in his grave.
Settle down, Beavis.>>18799>Woah that's really awesome, I hope you have fun. I think reenactment is really cool but I sadly know almost nothing about history.
I only got into history after my grandfather passed in 2017, it's never too late to start.
>I also don't really know anything about Japanese guns
Their bolt actions were actually some of the best military bolt actions in the world, just rendered obsolete by semi-automatic rifles like the Garand.
Their pistols however were pretty bad. Like, SIG P320 drop test bad.>the pawn shop near me had a bunch of old Japanese rifles for pretty cheap. Some of them still had the little chrysanthemum on them which was cool.
>That is a really cool adventure. And that's pretty brave of you to reach out to his grandson like that, what a neat story.
It and, and thanks! Although I reached out over email haha.>>18801
I know of Chinamen who fought for the CSA, but if you're talking black fellas then yeah Davis would be none too happy about that.
What an awful week
I really need a friend right now
I just don't know what to do with myself and it feels like I only exist as a burden to other people
Do you want to talk about anything or play any games?
I don't really know what to talk about. I just fucking hate everything.
I feel like I'm out of options to fix anything. Everything I try digs me deeper into where I'm at. Everyone around hates me at worst and tolerates me at best. I'm sick of being myself and I'm too scared to kill myself. I'd literally do anything just to exist as some other person who isn't me. I'm having trouble dealing with the prospect of living with this feeling for the rest of my life. It's been getting worse lately too. I feel trapped and I'm sick of sitting in my room after work crying while I wait to pass out.
>play any games?
I dunno what games we could play
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>>18817> I'm sick of being myself and I'm too scared to kill myself.
not allowed to sorry, you signed a contract stating you'll be here until the end of time and i'll go to hell and back to make sure that's the case
you don't get an easy out
>I feel like I'm out of options to fix anything.
you aren't; as long as you're willing you are always able to fix some things. it's not too late to change your hikikomori ways
>Everyone around hates me at worst and tolerates me at best.
this is really a self sabotaging thought to have even if its true. your value and meaning as a human being does not come from what other peolpe think of you. i can understand and sympathize with the sentiment though, i feel the same way about a lot of things, especially when it comes to my personal relationships with people.
> I feel trapped and I'm sick of sitting in my room after work crying while I wait to pass out.
please get a hobby, i say with in the nicest way possible
you have too much time on your hands and having something you can be productive towards and is goal oriented is really something great to live for
i don't care if it's something like collecting every card in a set in the pokemon trading card game or collecting a bunch of rocks, find something to do that doesn't keep you couped up in your room all day, that will help wonders
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now time for a personal blog where i share too much information because i dont have any real life venues of venting that are healthy
i recently broke up with someone who was probably the first person who made me feel good in a long time. i felt like maybe i could spend the rest of my life with them, but they didn't feel the same way. as much as i joke about having tons of relationships and sex to make people uncomfortable, the reality is that now i'm approaching the age where it becomes uncomfortable to myself to have missed out on so much in romance, sex and love. it stems from having unrealistic standards in people and not giving anyone a chance when they don't meet all of my hidden standards, so now i've approached christmas cake territory without having done basic shit that 13 year olds have already done lol
i hate dating, i hate interpersonal relationships, and i generally just hate people. i try really hard to do typical normalfag stuff, go out to parties, go on dates, whatever, but it all just bores me and i hold a general antipathy towards it. i don't like talking to people, and i get annoyed incredibly easy, so much that i've been chastised by bosses for taking "tones" with people because i get annoyed that they're droning on and on. somehow i still find myself in a fucking customer oriented job where i'm dealing with people because this is all i've done and at this point i'm locked into it skill wise, and it pays too well for me to drop it and pursue something different
i hate everything that's happening in my life right now, i hate that when you end a relationship with anyone, people start taking sides and leaving you alone because you'll always get painted as the villain, which isnt helped because i give shitty first impressions due to getting irritated really easily and not meaning to lash out
i'm such a hilariously pitiable person at this point, i don't understand how i do it. i hate that all of my relationships are basically "yeah i didnt like you at first but i got used to you" which is why i try hard online to be as not me as possible because i really just can't stand that i'm like this, my nature, and the fact that i've actually accepted it
>>18818>not allowed to sorry, you signed a contract stating you'll be here until the end of time and i'll go to hell and back to make sure that's the case
you don't get an easy out
Thanks Yuno. If you really want my crummy posts on your site that much I'll stick around.
>you aren't; as long as you're willing you are always able to fix some things. it's not too late to change your hikikomori ways
I feel like there are things I may be willing to fix that I am not able to. I'll probably keep trying though, but every time I do I fail and I slip back to being worse off than where I started because I have the specter of failure hanging over me and I develop mental blocks really easily
>your value and meaning as a human being does not come from what other peolpe think of you.
I dunno man. You're right of course, but I just can't shake the idea that I'd be a happier person if I could get rid of the nagging voice in my head that tells me I'll only ever be looked at with pity.
>please get a hobby
I appreciate the advice. But if anything I have too many hobbies and I just can't bring myself out of my depression to bother to enjoy them. I coped for the longest time doing exactly as you said and that's probably how I've picked up so many hobbies, but it's getting harder and harder.
>The body was too long
That's a new one.
Ahh heck. I just got done crying and now I'm doing it on someone else's behalf. I'm really sorry to hear that Yuno. Please cheer up.
>where i share too much information because i dont have any real life venues of venting that are healthy
H-haha imagine that…
> it stems from having unrealistic standards in people and not giving anyone a chance when they don't meet all of my hidden standards, so now i've approached christmas cake territory without having done basic shit that 13 year olds have already done lol
I wish I could offer advice but I hope you can find some small solace in that I feel the exact the same way.
>i hate dating, i hate interpersonal relationships, and i generally just hate people. i try really hard to do typical normalfag stuff, go out to parties, go on dates, whatever, but it all just bores me and i hold a general antipathy towards it. i don't like talking to people, and i get annoyed incredibly easy
Again, I know what you mean. Minus the getting annoyed easily part, I just get depressed. It makes it feel impossible for me to ever reach the level of relationship I'd like to be in. One of the reasons I'm so down on myself right now is that I went on my first ever date at the age of 25 and so far as I can tell the girl thought I was a total awkward weirdo loser. It really hurt that I put so much effort into trying to do the small talk and the hanging out and the chatting and the going out to eat in hopes of it being worth anything, only to have it turn out that I'm just not the kind of person most people want to know in that way. But despite that I'm not going to give up and I hope you don't either.
>somehow i still find myself in a fucking customer oriented job where i'm dealing with people because this is all i've done and at this point i'm locked into it skill wise, and it pays too well for me to drop it and pursue something different
I know it's a depressing prospect, but I think finding a job doing what you "love" or "enjoy" is incredibly rare or even just something people fool themselves into thinking they have. I'm sure that there are lots of people on earth who are generally happy people who don't enjoy their jobs. If it's getting to the point where it's literally too painful to bear continuing, I think you have to do some introspection as to whether the pay is worth the mental toll it takes.
>i hate everything that's happening in my life right now
>i'm such a hilariously pitiable person at this point, i don't understand how i do it.
You are not a pitiable person. You run a darn great website, you have a whole community of people who like you, your posts are funny, and you've got plenty of skills and talents. I admire you quite a bit in fact, and even if I only know the "internet Yuno", that's still some real facet of you. And I have no way of knowing but I'd bet money on the fact that you're not as awful and abrasive as you make yourself out to be and some part of that is just depression talking.
Lastly I realize it's stupid given my lack of experience to offer any kind of advice on this but it really tears me up to hear people talk about themselves in such a defeatist way. Doubly so because I recognize it's the same shit I do to myself. I hope you cheer up soon.
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>>18817>I feel like I'm out of options to fix anything
You're thinking too big, man.
You gotta lower your expectations and goals. You can't just up and change everything, you need to do small changes that prep you for the big ones.
>I feel trapped and I'm sick of sitting in my room after work crying while I wait to pass out
This is gonna sound weird, but listen to music.
Set up a playlist that starts with sad songs to help you cry all the pain out, then songs that have sad lyrics but to an upbeat tune, finishing with upbeat songs.
It helps. For example, songs like I Am a Rock by Simon and Garfunkel or Hurt by Johnny Cash or Mercy Seat by Nick Cage, to songs like Superman by Goldfinger or Once in a Lifetime by Talking Heads or Long Run by Redgum, to Drive Hard by Prototyperaptors or something by GYARI.
Redgum in general makes good music to find some strength to better your life in small ways at a time. Long Run and Poor Ned are my favorites, I'm not even Australian.
Music can be a lifesaver. I don't have any specific genres or bands or artists I follow or like against others, I really like all genres and they all can help you with perspective and mood in some way.
It's like you can hear the stories of hundreds of individuals who've also struggled and overcame in the instrumentals alone in some songs, and certain lyrics can stick with you and hold personal meaning, providing conviction needed to keep moving.>>18820>I feel like there are things I may be willing to fix that I am not able to
You can't "fix" everything, but you can make everything better, if that makes sense.>but every time I do I fail and I slip back to being worse off than where I started
You gotta fail in order to succeed a lot of times.
Farm 51 flopped with Deadfall Adventures, but made Get Even after and sold millions just based on their experience of failing with Deadfall Adventures.
>Body was too long
>>18819>i recently broke up with someone who was probably the first person who made me feel good in a long time. i felt like maybe i could spend the rest of my life with them, but they didn't feel the same way
That's rough. I went through something very similar in late 2016, only I only made it as far as the confession and we ended things negatively.
Ending things negatively might've been good for me, since being able to place my anger and sorrow on the same person made it easier getting over her.
From experience, time does heal. I managed to fill the void in my heart in a very bizarre way that I wouldn't recommend, but will mention anyway since filling the void in your heart can help.
I got into Irish Nationalism and Irish Republican Army stuff. I'm an American and don't really have a link other than a great grandfather and general distaste for the British, but the IRA and knowledge on them absorbed my life for a fair time and it kept me distracted from the sadness of having lost someone who filled my thoughts daily.
I wouldn't recommend getting into a 1970s paramilitary organization, but I would recommend getting into something new to fill the old that's been lost.>i'm approaching the age where it becomes uncomfortable to myself to have missed out on so much in romance, sex and love
After having flunked out with love, I've come to the conclusion that it isn't worth it anyway.
Also with sex I just get myself freaked out over STDs and the like. If I ever got in bed with a girl I'd be terrified if she had something and I'd be more terrified to ask.
Contraception also bugs me. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't enjoy fucking a girl through a condom, and, while I don't mean to get political as it's just an example, the morning after pill is abortion to me.
Lately I've just been disgusted and fed up with sex and sexuality in general. It's probably because I've been getting aroused so frequently that masturbation to me has become a chore like bringing out garbage.
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Yuukarin is cute.
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That reminds me. They installed bidet toilets in this place I go last week and they're amazing. We dry-paper-only people are primitive savages.
Did she like it or not? Spit it out, I don't have time for your chinese riddles.
But I have work tomorrow.
I'm visiting family over easter so I'm at an airport right now. I downloaded SoreMachi and Asobi Asobase to watch on the flights.
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Did you read Gunsmith Cats on your other flight?
What did you think?
I didn't, I packed in a hurry this morning. I'll download it to read on the way back though!
May is really ero
I shouldn't have opened that image in public lol
Sorry my brain is broken and worked like this>airport>Has he read Gunsmith Cats yet? I should post a page of lewd May because he'd like that!
instead of>airport>Has he read Gunsmith Cats yet? I probably shouldn't post anything explicit since he's at an airport!
Don't apologize silly! I know what I'm signing up for by accessing this den of perversion in a public space
I really need to come up with a strategy to combat these recurring bouts of nighttime depression.
Goodnight Samachan, love ya.
encircle them and cut them off from their supply lines
>>18836>I'm visiting family over easter
What the hell, I thought it was still March.
April is almost over dude
I can't believe tomorrow is already monday…
I'm gonna invest in the stock market and through sheer dumb luck become a samannaire.
this gives me an idea
Went outside and now i am sick.
Never leave home Samachan
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I gave Yuno an idea?
I'm glad, but also terrified.
what makes you go outside
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I tried watching Cowboy Bebop with my dad.
I think he likes it.
Sounds like he's ready for the next step.
I tried to watch that with my dad once too actually but he didn't like it. He did like Moyashimon and Gin no Saji though.>>18882>next step.
Ichigo Mashimaro? GochiUsa?
I hope her idea isn't IRA lesbian rape inspired.
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i'm up early and going to go to bed late
just another day in my awful life
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Doesn't your job pay really well though
You could probably retire early so that's something, at least.
[s]Did you expand the boards yet? I sent an email but didn't get a reply
Sucks being busy all the time[/s]
I love my family and all but the inevitable inquisition as to why I'm not in a relationship or higher education really makes me wanna die…>>18894
Hang in there Yuno.
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I thought you had a girlfriend now, yuyu
No no, I had a date. Which went about how you would expect it to go for someone of my age who has never been on a date before.
but now you can say you've been on dates before
if you get a girl to agree to be your girlfriend for 5 seconds you can also say "i've had a girlfriend before"
I didn't go on a date just to say I did! I did it for, y'know, all the other reasons.
I guess at least I have some tiny fragment of the experience I should by now…
It's been a terrible month of misery.
>>18905>I didn't go on a date just to say I did! I did it for, y'know, all the other reasons.
That may be the case, but if it was a failure then you should salvage from it what you can by using it to tell your parents you went on a date!
Do you want to talk about it?
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I don't understand western dating
Did you know the girl before? Are you still friends? It feels like you people just shop around for a girlfriend/boyfriend, it feels surreal to me.>>18906
Are you the anonymous who got a job?
>I don't understand western dating
man me neither…
>>18819>yeah i didnt like you at first but i got used to you
I'm the opposite of you.
>>18911>did you know the girl before
Not really, we met on a dating website>Are you still friends?
No, I never heard from her again after we got lunch.>It feels like you people just shop around for a girlfriend/boyfriend, it feels surreal to me.
Well I don't exactly have the means to meet someone I have anything in common with "normally". It's not gonna happen at either of my jobs, I don't go to school, and I hate doing "normal" social things like going to parties or bars. On top of that I'm a shy weirdo so I even I did go to school or something I doubt I'd have the courage to do anything. I'd love for someone I really get along with to just fall into my lap but if it hasn't happened yet it's not going to.
Typing this out has made me really disgusted with myself for some reason.
No, I'm not.>>18918
Dating sites feel so fucked up to me
I don't even know why
Oh are you Chinon? So do people also only date once they are officially an item over there?
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Finally back to my normal routine! Went on a family trip for a week and a half and rarely had down time that wasnt used for sleeping…
Time to catch up on all the airing stuff!
Yeah it feels really weird to me as well, I'd rather go steady with the sexy hurricane genius cold-hearted triple-master's elegant older sister of a very good friend rather than going on a date with a complete stranger!
I'm not voting for her.
Voting? What do you mean?
Idolmaster cinderella girls' phone game has a yearly poll to choose a "cinderella girl". It's a big event for the fanbase because, besides the "cinderella girl" title for the victor, the top 10 idols will get to record new songs. Which means that if an unvoiced idol makes it to the top 10, they'll get to have a seiyuu (Anastasia got a seiyuu this way). There are more details and more "prizes" for the idols depending on their rankings but that's the gist of it.
The all-time favourite idol is Kaede Takagaki. She made it to the top 10 in all the elections, meaning she got to have a ton of songs. She didn't make it last year pretty much because she finally got to first place two years ago.
Last year, Abe Nana won pretty much because it was the seventh poll and her name can be read as seven in japanese, frustrating Mio fans the world over because it's been supposed to be her turn to win the poll ever since both Rin and Uzuki won.
I will only vote for unvoiced idols.
Ah, I see. That's pretty neat!
Install it, vote for her >>18928
The problem is what counts as a date you know? Dinner or lunch together, normal friends do that all the time and split the bill or even have one guy pay (and the next guy the next time, and so on). Movies is a bit more eh, but then I don't watch movies anyway so I may not understand the culture as much. It feels to me like the only thing that makes a date a date is the fact that you're officially an item. Otherwise what's the difference between climbing a mountain or going boating with a girl and climbing a mountain or going boating during a date?
You're ignoring me now?!
But you're right, I always saw "dates" as absurd. Being asked on a date is pretty much the same as being asked whether or not you want to make out and/or have sex after spending up to five hours killing time before making out and/or have sex. Everyone who goes on a date knows this.
I get all my women with my poetry and beautiful singing voice.